I am so goddamn lonely. I know that i need to find myself before finding other people but i can’t fill this silence with just my own voice. And its not just love. My friends are constantly leaving me out to go smoke weed (i dont really like smoking) and i get it i’m staying back intentionally because i dont like doing that but they dont need to abandon me for hours. They dont need to get upset every time i mention how much they smoke every hangout, every day, and every single minute of their goddamn lives. None of them can go 10 fucking minutes without mentioning weed. 10 whole minutes. And they’re all like “oh you can’t get addicted to weed” motherfucker you are LIVING, SMOKE BREATHING, POT HEADED PROOF that you can get addicted to fucking weed.