Today my younger sister not only came out to me, but also told me she’s in a relationship, her first one. The first thing I felt was anger and jealousy. I’m older than her but I’ve never been in a relationship. I know I shouldn’t compare, I know everyone is on their own journey, but I can’t help feeling a little upset. I don’t care who she’s dating, it’s just the fact that she’s dating at all. I feel like I’ve missed out on a lot of milestones that come with growing up. She has, and will probably continue to meet these milestones before I do. I’m the oldest, shouldn’t I be experiencing this first? I feel shitty about even feeling like this. I should be happy for her, and a part of me is, but a bigger part is frustrated. Why is she doing this? She’s talked about how she finds relationships cringey, how she didn’t think she’d ever want one. What is wrong with me? Why couldn’t I have had this first? She gets everything already. Why this too? I’m honestly the most upset with myself.