dear god, i feel the most helpless today. I don't know how to live another day. Even another minute. Life has been cruel lately. I wonder how people on the other side feel like. Do they feel they have achieved success? Every minute I make a consious decision to not cry. Not because crying is for the weak but I've found myself alone lately. No one to talk to, no one to miss, no one to live life with. Its a lonely journey and I wish I wasn't this age.