My friends call me eye candy. Well they did once and never again. I tried to put it in the back of my head but every once in awhile the thought comes back. Am I really just my looks? I mean I wouldn’t even say I’m attractive. But seriously, do people really just view me as a painting with no meaning behind it? Yk what I’m saying? I mean nobody’s ever actually had a crush on me (that I know of). And honestly that kind of hurts because I love is something I want so badly in my life. I’ve only ever fallen in love once, and that person just thought I was pretty (from what I was told). Never actually wanted to build A relationship or anything. And again, I’m not even that pretty. But god I was in love. And I didn’t even know them that well. They have a partner now so I’m trying to get rid of any remaining feelings. I guess im just worried that I’ll never fall in love, and nobody will truly love me anything more than Platonically. I just want love. This is stupid, sorry.