I’m tired of pretending everything is fine when I’m actually hurt and angry. I feel like my siblings were given opportunities and support that I never got, yet I was still expected to catch up. Being reclassified made me feel even more behind, like I was being pushed back because I hadn’t been given the same chances to begin with. I resent my parents for that, and I’m also scared of my mom’s anger. I just want to move forward, have my own life, and finally feel like I’m not constantly trying to catch up. Last time I actually cried was a year ago and told her about my struggles couldn’t believe how much she yelled at me and told me I was ungreatful. Crazy because I spent so much thinking on how to be perfect for her and make her proud of me, kept a nice tone ignored all the bad things she did to me. Did the stuff she asked for without a complaint. Thought I’m just a really insecure person. I’m the biggest loser ever. I can’t even get a 100 on math. Got 70 fuck