I envy one of my friends. She’s done nothing wrong, and I know that really well, it’s just - I hate her. I’ve had a weird life, I’ve been in and out of poverty or a normal life I guess. I’ve been groomed, no all my childhood friends have died due to the struggle of sadness. I’m in high school, and I’ve spent my whole life wanting to become something big in the world. I want money, success but most of all, just a life I feel happy with. No stress or panicking that another one of my depressed friends will go bye, or that my mom will break down again and try to leave me. I keep saving every single person around me, while trying to get good jobs and learning. I have all A+’s, I’m in multiple clubs, i say speeches for the school, damn it! I’m perfect in my life from what everyone else sees, because I don’t want them to see less. One of my friends though, never tries at being good and says how I’m so perfect and I hate her for it. Why do you have the good life? And you hate it so damn much?