i swear on my life, noting is ever going right; it's just multiple failures that keep making me unable to fight. First are consecutive failed quizzes, then friends with partners that won't come to your aid but you would go to their aid if they needed you, and especially a family that just uses you as a platform to express their anger. Every time my parents would come home they leave me with their burdens for that day, they use me as an excuse to lash out and get mad when I did nothing wrong and when they provoke me, I get frustrated and now it's my fault like bullshit. Another is that one girl I like but I can't bring myself to express it because my ex keeps brining up the shit I did and unfortunately, people believe her lies and deception and if it is true that cannot accept the mistake I made and forgive me, like what's a man supposed to do? it doesn't help she gives me constant mixed feelings but like I said I can't voice it out even if I talked to her multiple times already.