I feel lost I’m 19 I’ve already gone through more than most people ever will I was sexually abused by my brother for years and I told my parents and they didn’t care. I joined the military after I graduated high school that helped me finally find a home. I become a squad leader and while I’ve been a squad leader I’ve had 2 of my soldiers kill themselves and I feel like I let them down and it’s been a huge burden on me. I’ve never had a relationship cause of my abuse I suffered early on and every relationship ends cause I can’t connect to them cause I think imma be a abused or something every time then when stuff does go good for me it comes crashing down within months I have no friends no social life I stay inside when I’m not in classes I’m just tired of living this life and having all these challenges I know challenges come to everyone but why do I feel like I get them all at once