at this point, i'm okay with dying. </3 i'm not a good person, i haven't gotten help, and i just don't fit into this world. i don't even see a future for myself anymore, and scarier thoughts keep appearing in my mind that i've never thought before. quite honestly, i don't see myself living past 20, 21 at the max. if i die, i hope that whoever reads this will actually be a better person than i was, get help. find some friends, live the life i couldn't. :,)