im genuinely at a breaking point maybe for the third time in my life. not even 23 and i feel like i cant do this anymore. family doesnt get me, never will, they refuse to think differently. they tell me if i dont change my little sibling is going to have to look after me when we get older to guilt me, because something is just inherently wrong with me. i dont know how to talk to people, i have no friends, i have crippling anxiety and cant go anywhere by myself, i have health issues, im ridiculously neurodivergent and i just make everyone'a lives worse. i dont want to live but at the same time i fear nothing more than death. i have severe health anxiety, im always getting checked out to make sure my heart works that im not sick, i hate my life. the only things that bring me comfort are two video games i like and i have always dreamed of being a cartoonist, but i dont think I'll ever make it. im tired, i dont know what to do anymore. where to go from here.