I hate school cuz with it I don’t have time for shit. But in the 2 weeks of break I’m so exhausted and depressed state of mind I can’t do anything. My attention span is also not great and trying to fix it has been frustrating at best. My friends don’t talk to me first, ever, and the only ones who do are either can’t rn or have their own problems and I don’t want to talk to them about anything. Everyday I feel less and less like I’m a guy/boy/whatever and I don’t know what to do about it. My older brother won’t ever let me forget and might be straight up homophobic and wont accept me and my family is really on the fence about trans issues and I can’t tell what the fuck they’ll think. My dysmorphia is eating me alive and my will to resist it is decreasing. I don’t know at this point, I never do.