So i wanted to share a few thoughts here, i just had a realization, i know it's gonna make me sound stupid, because i am, but i think that i got sexually assaulted as a kid by one of my friends from back then. I was thinking about the past, about when i was a child, and then a memory came to my mind, i remember being like 7 years old, and having a friend that was around 3 year older than me, we were playing like any other day, and we managed to beat the game we were playing, and then he said: "Hey we should go celebrate" And of course, i said yes, he told me to go to the room with him, and then he told me to suck his penis, i was too little to know what his intentions were, i was so innocent, i didn't even know that what he was doing was wrong, so i just did what he said, and i know now that he knew very well what he was doing, because later he showed me some videos on his mother's phone. I think i have been blocking that memory for a long time now, i just needed to get it out