I’m dreading becoming a pharmacist. I’ve already applied for undergrad, so it’s too late now. But I don’t know what to do, I’m doing bad in school and the prospect of doing this for the rest of my life scare me. I’m too dumb, and I’m scared that talking with anybody will just lead to people saying that I’m “so smart” and “can do this” and blah blah blah, I’m so alone I can’t talk to anybody because of my fear of what they’ll say, because I know what they’ll say. I know I’ll just have to push through like I did everything else, and if I’m not doing this then I don’t know what other career prospects that’ll be good enough. I look at things about the future and know that that won’t be my life, I’ll probably be holed up in my room studying 24/7, I’m supposed to enjoy these years, these are supposed to be the best years of my life and the more I think about it the more my cortisol strikes because now I spend every night crying about how pathetic I am