I feel so negative all the time it's eating away at me everyday I have to fight not to just be a pos all the time but I still am when my friend is happy and getting better I get so mad and jealous but id never tell her that I just say im happy for her and keep going when I see a happy couple I genuinely get so mad it's insane I feel so bitter I hate seeing people happy but id never tell them that to their face I'll just keep pretending and move on until I cant anymore