Yesterday my friend texted me and she was worried that he had committed and I don’t even know the guy yet I kept calling him until she texted me saying he responded and I was just so happy yet when I stopped texting her in the middle of a conversation and almost killed myself she texted two words to ask if I was ok then didn’t follow up at all and I didn’t end up doing it and called her later to talk about her other friend and Ik the point is not to make her worry but I just felt like such shit and then today as soon as I got home from school she asked me to help her make 3 other people feel better abt themselves and it’s basically the only reason for my existence and at this point I’m wondering if maybe I should have just done it yesterday.