I'm repeating my college year for the third time and my ex classmates have all wrapped up their classes, the thing is i KNOW i can do better i know i could've done things right but i just can't make myself move i can't feel the urge in the moment to actually do things it feels like my brains just sort of apathetic to it while obviously not being apathetic at all, i keep panicking i keep breaking out i lose and gain weight from stress in just the right amounts where it bothers me and it just really sucks but like overall i somehow feel even more shit for feeling so fatigued and panic ridden all the time because really my life is stable, yea my parents are a bit pushy and say the wrong things at the worst of times but they support me, i have friends i have everything i could need so i just feel even worse for somehow failing all of it and for even really moping about anything going wrong, i'll have to sit with myself for another repeat year and just make the best of it