im struggling with loneliness right now because of my illness. I spend a lot of time at the hospital or doctors or just in my room alone. Yes I go to support groups and therapy online but it’s just not the same. My friends all live so SO far away and they are like a blip of happiness in the day. But it’s hard to feel connected or wanted in the world. I’ve never had a romantic relationship and this generation is all about lust. And that’s exhausting because yeah sure we could have sex but don’t you care about my mind? Don’t you care about my grandma and my daily life? It’s an ache in me for deeper connections and conversations but autism has me tongue tied, I’m exhausted. I try and try and try and still feel so alone. Solitude is great but I wonder if there’s a life beyond this void of sadness and isolation? Is there happy possibilities possible for me too?