im so fucking sad all the time, all of my friends know me in a surface level, someone who i thought was my best friend isnt i called her last night drunk cuz i was having the worst night ever and she didnr answer and said shed call me back tmr, its tmr and she hasn’t called me back an i find out she was with some random dudes one of them being her crush, i was there for her at her lowest and she wasnt for me i constantly feel like im puting so much effort into friendship and getting nithing back and also I’ve never kissed a guy, no guy has ever asked me out and the only time i held a hand with a boy is during a challenge where we had to gather in a circle. My parents trap me, i don’t feel happiness anymore even when everything is fine its like im going fucking crazy every day and everyone notices but no one wants to help fuck this life