I've been thinking about my ex a lot more recently and it worries me a lot bc why do I miss him so much when all he did was ruin relationship for me to begin with and caused sm trauma with it. Like we were even long distance but I've been thinking a lot about him even got excited bc I found my old phone and looked through the contacts and didn't have his number I've grown a lot as a person now and so much difference compared to that but idk I miss him a lot and even old things have been reminding me of him.