I am in love with my friend's boyfriend. My love for him has grown exponentially in the past two years I've known him. I was in a relationship then, as well. I am not any longer, as my partner says they do not feel anything towards me anymore. That's fine, we both saw it coming anyway. But now, spending countless hours with this beautiful boy makes my heart soar. I feel unraveled when he's not around. I suspect he feels the same way, but I'm too stupid to catch any hints he throws at me. Plus, there is question of my friend, HIS boyfriend. I don't know what to do. I try to sleep it away (can't overthink and spiral when you're asleep), but I hear his laughter ringing in my ears. I miss the warmth of his skin, the way he plays with a tendril of his long hair, his smile, his soft touch. I have never in my life encountered someone who just understands me on such a fundamental level. I love him so much, and he'll never know it.