One of my friends took their own life. Ive been in greif for about 2 months and i cant help but think about her every single day and night. I havent had a good night sleep in over a month and im getting arm spasms and huge headaches in the middle of the day randomly. I wish i could see her one more time, talk to her about my day and also listen to her telling me whats been going on in at her house. I miss the times we used to sit around talk and then silence would fill the room as we both look at eachother and laugh. I never got to tell her this but i has a crush on her for about a year and a half i was getting ready to someday tell her that when i heard the devastating news, i didnt want to belive it, i thought to myself she would never do that but turns out she verywell did. She was getting abused by her father ever since shes been little. He kept telling her off and even insulting her calling her fat and so on. Ive been holding on to a picture of her and crying myself to sleep.