Oh my fucking god I'm so fucking tired of all this fucking shit god dammit sorry for my language I hate my god damn anxiety it's insane like last fuckin summer I did a production of Bright Star and I didn't know ANYONE IN THE CAST afterword why? Because MY GOD DAMN ANXIETY WIUKDNT LET ME JOIN THEIR CONVORSATIONS and I'm TERRIDIED the same shit is gonna happen again with my current show Addams Family where I am a lead WHAT IF I CANT TALK TO THE CAST AGAIN THIS TIME dammit! It's not even that I'm antisocial I'm a fuckin extrovert I just can't start cinvorsations I can only take part in them when somebody comes to me I DONT KNOW WHAT TO FUCJING DO the cast is all really cool people I just want to get to know them and I keep saying "oh you will" BITCH WHRN?! The onky time I even slightly opened up to the bright star cast was the CAST DINNER AFTER THE LAST SHOW I need to be very comfortable around people to open ip to them and YHAT IS HARD FOT ME TO DO WHEN I ONLY SEE THEM 3 Times a week!!!