i don’t know why i feel this way, but i genuinely just hate being alive. i was diagnosed with depression a while back and have been taking medicine since then. i’ve been relying on it but recently either it’s getting weaker or my mental health is getting much, much worse. i want to do something horrible to myself that i will regret but the other part of myself desperately wants to get better. it’s exhausting. i don’t want to go back to how it used to be and i guess i have no choice other than to be optimistic because that’s what everyone tells me to do
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