i really don't know what to do anymore. no matter what i do i never feel happy. i've tried and i've tried and i've tried so hard. i don't want to kill myself. i WANT to be happy, but no matter what i can never get there. i've tried reaching out and telling people and i still feel so lonely. i feel depressed all the time now. i don't even know what i'm working towards anymore. i'm a sophomore in college. i'm a graphic design major but i don't even want to be one anymore. the classes started feeling like torture to me. i used to be so passionate about it, i don't know what happened. i don't feel passionate about anything anymore. all i feel is depression. i'm taking classes but what's even the point? in highschool i felt like i had a goal..do well in all my classes so i can get into a good uni. well now i'm here and i don't fucking know what i'm doing. but i don't know what else i'd want to do either. i don't feel anything. i don't have any purpose in life. everything's too fucking hard.