Whenever you play fight with her. I cannot help but feel sick to my stomach. The way your chest rubs on her, both hands clenched together, then way you two act disgusted when joked as a couple make me feel sick. I know your attraction only towards men, I know our short age gap that feels miles away, and I know you feel platonic towards me, but when we kissed in front of everyone like newly weds, what did you feel? Did you feel pleasure? Did you feel like you were kissing half-a-guy or half-a-girl? Or did you feel disgusted? You looked me in the eyes the whole time and then said “-you pulled away?”. I hate you so much. I really do but, as longs these games continue, I’ll be stuck with you either way. And honestly I can’t get enough, because I’ve always wanted you. Fuck you.