im going so crazy over this boy and i think he might be my first real crush and im freaking out. i dont think ive ever felt this way about a guy at all. i've had "crushes" but i realized that they were all platonic. but, this guy bro im so down bad. i like him romantically. recently ive been feeling like absolute shit and sick. my mom says that im pale, i get extremely nauseous and during class i gag silently because of how i feel. but in my two classes i share with him, the only thing i can truly focus on is him and its eating me alive. my friends say that i have a chance, but the only thing is that i CANNOT talk to him in real life for the life of me. i can talk online, sure, but when i see him in person i get so nervous and shaky. this is like a parasite but i wanna get with him so bad...