No one here probably relates, but holy shit is being a transgender male absolute hell. Unsupportive family, have to wait to transition, have to deal with my chest always being too big, binders suck and I wear too many at once so my chest hurts, I suck at applying trans tape so that does nothing, periods are torturous because they make me dysphoric AND it's pointless because I don't ever plan to have children, hearing my dead name used in public is like a knife, and I just can't keep dealing with all of this. I want to completely restart. I want to transition and leave, cut everyone I know off and move somewhere no one will know I'm trans. Where I can pass as a cis guy. Life would be easier. But I can't. It's family. I have two boyfriends (open relationship, they know). I have friends. I have plans with all of them. Gods, I hate life, it's so complicated and filled with obligations I think I need to meet. Maybe I should just become a statistic.