I’m so focused on being liked than actually fixing my problems it’s insane it’s like my brain can’t switch modes or something. I know what I need to do to achieve my goals so why am I holding myself back? it hurts being so alone. I have 0 friends. and feel so behind like a bum. I’m so distracted right now and I can’t even focus on my goals. I have another chance to fix my life. that’s what I told myself when this oppurtunity came. so why am I not fixing it. why am I reminiscing about the past and the old friendships that were made. why am I thinking so much about how horrible I am. how unattractive I am. instead of thinking of how to better myself. my room is a pig stye. and I need to change before it’s too late.. or else I’ll be stuck in the same spot I am in now 10 years time. being bitter over old friendships that ended wrongly, being alone and wondering “where did it all go wrong?”