i dont know what to do with myself anymore. im not good enough. im not quick enough im just so bad at doin this stuff. i wish i was dumb so that ppl wouldnt keep their expectations of me very high. i feel that life is tiring. i have these dark thoughts which i dont want pay any heed, but they keep comin back and i dont know how to make them stop. they dont let me sleeep at night. i dont knwo what to study. i just want to stop feeling this way. i cant keep myself busy all the time , i break down even worse. i just wanna be happy again