My online friend killed themself last night. They told me in advance they were going to but I thought I had convinced them otherwise after almost a week of telling them they could do this, were a great person, didn't deserve it, and I needed them alive. They left me a note on my rant last night saying they were going to do it. I thought I could save them. My heart dropped when I saw the message. I won't put the actual message but they said something along the lines of "I'm going tonight. I'm sorry." I was hoping I had time to save them. Hoping the message would say 1 hour ago. It said one day ago. I will say their name because I don't fucking care who knows. People need to remember them. I want people to remember them. I don't want to be the only one. I was just thrown back into the dark place I was in before. Fly high and if heaven is real may we meet again one day. And as you used to say, have a good day tonight, and forever. Fly high f.g. I miss you already. -Astro