I hate myself, so much and i don't now how to open up. I want to talk about it I want to share my Problems but I can't. In School i have some friends I really want to open up to but how can I? The 2 girls I'm always around have other Friends (don't get me wrong i have other Friends to but they are in a diffrent class or school) and the other Friends seem to find me so so annoying and when I try to say something I'm always interupted and practicly need to fight for people to listen to me. Or I always have the feeling to need to fight for the attention of one girl, like a desprate child trying to talk to her mother and its exhausting. And then that girl tells me she's sad and worried for our Friendship because I "lost the desire to talk", and I'm just thinking abouts who's fault that is. But then I'm thinking it's my fault, like everything. I'm too annoying. Too loud. Too Much. Not enough. All at the same time and I just can't anymore. I want to be happy and feel free to Talk, but how?