I’m such a freak man, this morning at 7:00 for no reason I cut myself 22 times, 22 times all over my wrist, I have no idea why, but I started in July and stopped for a while then I randomly started again. Am I just insane, or do I just hate myself that much, and god why am I starting to hate everyone I love, like my girlfriend, I’m just losing feelings for her, and now I want to be in a relationship with a fucking guy, what the hell is wrong with me, I genuinely don’t know, I don’t even want help, I fear if I say something I’m just gonna get sent to a ward or some shit, Ive also been thinking about shooting myself, I still don’t fucking know why, I have a good family, I get good grades, I have friends, what the fuck is wrong with me man, I just don’t know.