sometimes the loneliness hits so bad and i sit here thinking why did i block him i genuinely want to unblock him right now. i check my phone trying to see if he contacted me on a different account, to ask where did i go.. im delusional.. and i know that he never truly liked me for me, he never wanted to know stuff about me, like what makes me mad, what food i like, he just wanted to be lustful any second w me i thought being lustful back could make him like me more but that got me no where. he just got more and more distant & ghosted me.. so i just blocked him… w/o saying a word.. i mean i wanted him to want me, i thought he was my soul mate.. But i think i don't miss him, i miss the attention and how special he made me feel every day. i miss having notifications from someone on my phone . i miss being wanted…. even if it was “lust”.