it sucks being me. I hate seeing everyone live their life while I feel like im watching mine fly past on the side lines. I care way too much about what ppl think of me, all I wanna do is talk to more ppl but I analyze myself and everyone else like a science experiment. My social anxiety Is terrible. I have hardly any friends and all I do I vent to Chatgpt and count my calories. im just so lonely. i recently dropped my toxic bsf and now she's bad mouthing me and telling lies to everyone. Worst part is I got 3 classes w her and none with the ppl I wan get closer w. it fucking sucks seeing her laugh with everybody while I sit quietly in the back with all the losers. when im home I can't wait for school. at school I can't wait for home. idk when its gna get better.