Rant #23472

Whenever I have a really bad day and start thinking about really bad things, my mind always goes to self-harm and suicide, but I never actually did either because I was scared to cut myself or anything, the most I did was give myself carpet burns on my arm, and it's been like that since 6th grade. But last night, I guess it was too much, and then today I actually cut myself for the first time with my scissors