i love that your eyes are the clearest blue I've ever seen. i like how they look straight into me like I'm a piece of glass. i like the calculating look you get on your face when you think. i love the sandy color of your hair. i love how handy and strong you are. i love how brave and fearless you are even though you let on you might be as scared as i am. i love the crinkle around your eyes when you smile. the way you tilt your head to the side too. and I love that you scoff more than you laugh. but when I make you laugh, a real laugh, it's like I earned a small secret part of you. i love that you are so unapologetically yourself and you will make it everyone else's problem. i love that you have strict routines because they make sense to you and it doesn't matter if it makes sense to any one else. you make me feel seen, and human. i thank you for believing in me when I can never do it for myself. i hate that I can never tell you I have a crush on you