I do kind of miss having a group to smoke and drink with. I mean, it's not things I generally enjoy doing, but it was nice to do rarely with friends. It was nice having a thing. Now I just kind of...sit around and wait. Wait for my job applications to get looked at and thrown to the side. Or to go to an interview and not get a call back. It's just neverending. And there's no one I can hang out with at all, even if we just sat in the same room and didn't talk, just did our own things, even on our phones or something. And I can't even socialize for shit. All I talk to are ppl I barely know online about nothing and all my social skills were shit, but now it's about 20 times worse because I don't talk to any reason people except for my mom an sister in law. It's been like this for months. Other people make, well, everything look easier than it is for me. Before I was scared to talk to ppl and now I'm terrified.