Why do I feel suicidal to avoid responsibility, consequences, and confrontation about grades, school work, and my laziness, and the fact I isolate myself in my room to scroll on my phone and play video games. My parents are really concerned for me and they even found out about my suicidal thoughts because I wrote in a Google Doc on an assignment saying I’d kill myself after high school and I didn’t feel any empathy or sympathy when they cried and expressed their genuine concern and confusion for me. I just want to know why I’m like this and I’m scared and confused