I want to kill myself on a live stream and become famous like Ronnie Mcnutt so people make edits of me, animate me, and stuff like that, but the problem is that killing myself on a live stream wont make me witness my own fame and also i want to live kinda, i live for my family, kinda afraid to die, and id rather live than not exist. Also im scared that my live stream will be too small and no one screen records it and reposts the footage everywhere.