I’m so alone, I feel like nobody cares about me. Not my family, friends, and I’m too lost for god. Nobody knows how many nights I’ve cried myself to sleep and the anxiety and thoughts I have to deal with all alone somehow. When I tell my mom, (the only person I can semi yet rarely trust) she gets annoyed because she sees my problems as small and irritating. I get it, I know I annoy her with my self comments, but I just really wish someone would know what I go through so I don’t feel so alone. I don’t want to keep talking to myself about it or fantasize about spilling my guts to somebody who truly cares, that will never happen, so this is the closest I’m getting I think. It’s hard coming to terms with the reality that I’m an idiot, ugly (incredibly), annoying, weird, and obnoxious. These facts are also why I will never find someone to truly love me at least in the specific way I want to be loved. And sorry for my cornyness if someone even reads this