I am male, 31 years old and am obese. I have been how is am basically my whole life. Yes I tried to slim down more than many times and it never worked out as much as I wished. I also know that I am better of to go on a diet und seek out help, but it is hard and I always feel like I will be judged. Even now I feel silly trying to explain this. Anyways I'm am on Vacation in Japan with my wife and friends. Its been a lifetime wish to visit this land. The friends made a lot of plans and we basically asked if we could tag along. Now we went to Universal Studios and almost all rides were not possible for me to get on because of my size. Also Im so slow, and the need to wait forme. Im fully aware that it's my fault and I feel bad for my friends. Also my Wife was showing Pity. I am just frustrated with myself because I put them in an awkward situation, because I feel like it's my fault for being fat. I am trying not to show it but I feel so ashamed and afraid, that they think less now of me.