tw I will be mentioning gross hygiene habits, suicide, and sh. i added a tw because I felt like it dude my room is so so fucking disgusting. I have open food, a shit ton of flies everywhere, sweaty clothes on the ground and used pads on the floor. I feel so so so disgusting and gross but like I really cannot clean my room I can't do it anymore I really can't I feel so so pathetic I started binge eating a shit ton of ice cream and god I feel so so disgusting I feel so icky and gross one time (this was recent) I was getting really pissed about something and I started strangling myself out of pure anger and I started to like self harm alot on my arms and I felt terrible after I just want someone to tell me it'll be okay I just want attention I wanna die so bad I cant please I quit I give up just put me out of my misery please please please I give up