I don't hate my dad or at least i think i don't. fuck i dont know. i hate his ways of handling things, how he has the title of "dad" but my brother and I don't even like we have a father who is present emotinally. it's almost like he doesn't have kids. My brother sacrifice his studies to work and save money to put himself through school while my mom struggles to budget everything since she's almost paying for everything including my school activities as she also doesn't want me to miss out every opportunity in my senior year. While my dad spends his money like he doesn't have any responsibilities and he has a lot of debt. I hate his habits. habit of gambling, smoking, drinking, I fuckng hate it but i can't even bring myself to say everything I have been holding back because I know that once I do, everything between us will never be the same. I will no longer at him as my father. I dont know anymore, i don't know what to do.