its my birthday and I've been having a really tough time with life recently. im going through a really bad breakup/situationship and depression. everythings been hard and I found out that two of my best friends hung out without me today. yes they're allowed to hang out on their own, but I still feel hurt even though that's really selfish of me. it hurts even more bc one of them told me they weren't gonna be able to come to my birthday dinner bc they had service hours but idk if that's true cause she hung out with my other friend today. I feel selfish but it's kinda like feeling excluded on your birthday. im trying to not let it get to me bc that feels so selfish but I just wish they invited me cause it's my birthday. I feel like shitty for this and like im being selfish but I just feel really hurt. im really scared that my best friend doesn't like me anymore idk what to do. im really scared of losing more friends