I hate my acne. I hate how I blame it for my misfortune in love, as if someone would even love me without it. I hate how insecure I am just because I don't get any validation. I've abandoned all thoughts of having a relationship, as it seems impossible. I just wish someone would like me, just to boost my ego. I boosted people's egos and I got nothing back, just humiliation and more self-esteem issues. I resent the people I loved who found out about it. they were flattered when it really wasn't the right thing to feel, to be loved by me signals there's something wrong with you too, I have no self respect and love terrible people. I resent them for treating me with pity as well or feeling amused by my suffering caused by my affection. but what's done is done, it's no use crying about the past when the future doesn't seem any brighter. I've reached a low never reached before, I can't even watch romance movies anymore because I feel even more hopeless about myself. who would love me?