I'm sick about myself rn. Can't think can't eat can't sleep. Told several close friends but still haven't brought myself to do it yet. I have a bf. Love him, or at least did. Feelings lost, kinda. Go to different schools, don't see him often and when I do I find myself annoyed with his presence. I can't lie to myself and I don't wanna lie to him. Need to break up. Don't know how. Feel like shit because at this point I've already been looking at another guy for like 3 weeks. Just looking. But I know myself. I have a crush. And I have a boyfriend. Two different people. Don't know how to tell bf. Guilty and need it to happen for my sake and his. Still fine being friends but know everything will be awkward. Feel like my whole life is collapsing. Scared about everything.