Rant #22876

Idk anymore, I lost the person I care about most recently and I was already having mental issues and this has sent me spiraling. I break down crying every fucking day now, in my car, at home when my wife is gone and any other time someone's not around cause I have no idea how to explain how everything in my mind is wrong. I wish I wasn't too scared to end things, I want nothing more than peace and I dont see ever having that in this life. Im so tired.