i want to be someones best friend. i've had many best friends but i've never been someones best friend. i've never been the person someone turns to to talk about anything crazy that happens. if i'm sad i don't know who will actually care. i crave that deep friendship that i've never had. the two friends who do everything together. i don't even know who will be my maid of honor when i get married. i've always dreamed of it being my best friend and she cries because she knows everything that has led me to that moment but i don't have anyone like that. i have lots of friends and acquaintances, and even people i consider my best friends, but they never reach out first. they never make plans with me. they post themselves with their real best friends while i watch and pretend that they care about me. i'm just tired of being alone.