Rant #22608

im not the first option of anyone, my best friend doesnt see me as her best friend. i guess im just not so fun to talk to. they all talk about boys, makeup... etc. why cant i be like the other girls? why im so different? why am made this way. im just way too much shy. i cant even ask for help. oh god im tired. all days feel like the same. but reading some notes here it feels like my problem isnt big enough. im sorry im too dramatic