I feel like I'm doing everything wrong. Its not that people make me feel like that. I do that to myself. Because there is always this heavy feeling of needing be better than I currently am. And I don't want to feel like that. I know my body has limits because of certain sicknesses. But it's slowing me down. I could play so much Volleyball in my free time. Instead I skip training because my body can't handle it most days. It is frustrating that my body never works how it should be. And I know there are people who have it worse who have limited movement and stuff and I feel bad for complaining. But I want to move. I want to do sports and go jogging and play Volleyball and play on games and be able to keep up with the girls who smoke in the bathroom and are still faster than I am. I want my chest to stop hurting after two rounds of running. I want the world to stop tilting. I want to be able to be the athlete everyone always thinks I am. Sport is a part of me. And I feel like Im losing it